A reality show makes me cry

Last Sunday I watched a TV reality show on RCTI, named Idola Cilik. It is a children singing contest, such as Indonesian Idol. Yeah, after such a long time I never cry before, I cried. Why? because I remember how my parents love me… until now. You know… I live separated with them for about 9 years, because of my duty on study, since I was in Junior High School. And now, when I will graduate in July (Hopefully), I should give them the best that I have. It is a such a load, but… I don’t want to be a pessimistic person.

Itamar, Edo Kondologit’s daughter, sang the “Reflection” song beautifully. I just remember, how My Mom and Dad cry and proud of me… when I’ve got some price or award in school. That is the same as how Edo proud of Itamar. It is very sensitive. Ohhhh…

And, before it, I just got a problem with my girlfriend. Yeah, I didn’t really care… so much about her. I don’t know, if she compares me with her last boyfriend, I am careless… but, I want to fix it. I want to make it better than her boyfriend did. I want to fix it.

For Sunday, February 24, 2008. This time I can cry again. But, I am not sad anymore, because I can cry, after such a long time I cannot cry.

Forever Love

(adopted from Indonesian Song; Selamanya Cinta; dedicated to sum1 who wants to start; and is still confused whether love me or not!- hopefully)

When the heart is worried,
And a thousand considerations come to FORCE me!
Missing you is always in my mind.

If I can read your mind,
With million of hopes I really want to fly

I don’t care that the clouds are also worried
the leaves are falling
But your love, darling;
is rising such as a star
That shine and enlight my soul…

I wish I could confess my feeling
That can make you trust me
I would give you a whole of my love
forever and ever…

Hard Weeks but It’s very sweet…

You know, I’ve got a lot of problems; from my study, life, my friend’s trouble, and my love journey. But, I enjoyed it. you know… It started from September 9th, Mezo was sick at hospital, my friend got accident, and so on. But I had several solutions to solve it: one of them is Pray!

And God answered my pray… u know, my life now is more colorful. I have many friends in my life who always motivate me to do my task, study, etc. I am also getting in a close relationship with a girl, as my special friend, that give me spirit… thank you so much, …. I hope, I will hv a chance to be her special person, in her life. (Hopefully!)

God, bless me to do everything such as study, activity in ITB choir, love, friendship, and family. I hope I can manage and enjoy it.  

Office and Office again…

Thursday, July 17, 2007.

Office and Office again. I went there for so-and-so many time. I just keep my mind not to be lime (woaaahahahaa)

This is the day that I started to new topic: CCTV. I have to arrange my meeting with Mas Harly, which separated place from me, in Gunung Utara. Before that, I also have a study from Pak Rio. Yeah, He explained me sistematicaly, and I should start not to have an a priori to him. He is very kind… now. Hehe

At 4.30 I have a fortune time coz Mas Tulus went to this office and would go to Gunung Utara.. (Mean: I can go with him to go there!) yeah..

I have a nice explanation again from Mas Harly… about CCTV. Maybe I should write that topic in a special post. Thanks Mas Harly. Maybe today (July 18, 2007).

Then…….. in this week… I should study… study …. and study… !!!

And the things that I should concern and obligate:
- don’t forget to fill journal
- don’t forget to study all the things that I don’t understand…
- but, what the essence of this OJT (On Job Training??) = study and study???
- don’t forget also to socialize with all the people in the atmosphere of work…

I hate Monday!

Monday, July 16, 2007
This is the day that people maybe say: I don’t like hate Monday. I also feel like that.. coz I have hard breath… I don’t know, this make my mind stop thinking and hard to do anything.
But, today, I have to finish my task from Rio to copy SisiNubi Project documentation. I did’t understand, why he came to my room suddenly and asked me to do that… whereas, before this, he is not kind to me…
(i don’t know why?)
Exactly, I have finished my task yesterday (On Friday). I just keep to hole few papers, dude.

Incidently, I talked to him in the middle of I went to toilet… I have a lot of things from him. It’s about how to understand telecommunication, how to understand work, how the material of your study in university is just a feeeeeeew (little!)

Once again, I really surprised with his change to me.
(Oh… I feel hard to breath, today!) Shit!
 

Time to be calm and go to Church!

Sunday, July 1, 2007
I just spent this day by watching a film. This day… I spent my day by sleeping. But accidently I met mas Mulyadi and Sabana that wanted to go to the office. Yeah… I followed them after I finished my lunch.
I browsed some websites and updated my friendster there.
In the afternoon 5.15 pm I went to Church. Andy could’t go to Church this day. I went there by angkot 6 prapatan. As usual, The Church is St. Teresia. Then I hv an appointment meet angga, who will interns in Chevron. I had dinner with him by buying Pecel lele… (expensive!!! IDR 20.000,00!

What a f*ck sh*et!

The 5th day of internship

it’s a real life. but i’m disappointed.

You just get up from your dream. Back to basic is not a good thing. written after move from hotel to the kos2an.

When I talked to a ‘beautiful girl!’(9/6/07)

O… Gosh! Whaddup.. with me last night?

I couldn’t stop anything… coz she is very beautiful, smart, and oh… really … complete  woman. She is very religious,,, she is preaty…

She is Ehm ehm… a member of ITB students Choir. I could open the conversation coz i hv a job training or intership in Balikpapan, her hometown. So I started by talking bout balikpapan…. one day b4 i took the gathering party.

And… incidentaly, i had a chance sitting with her in a small table with other friends (6 persons in a table) .

We talked much..

I’m really interested ’bout how the way she looks, says, smiles, etc. I think she is a nice candidates to be my next best friend or special friend.  (ngarep… :()